{SQT} Things I've Learned About Using Formula

Tomas has been on his new feeding plan for over a month now and things are really looking up.   See those chunky thighs?!?!  We've learned a lot and I'm hoping progress continues right up until his issues disappear completely (a mom must always have hope).  That being said, our adventures in feeding Tomas have taught me a lot about (previous-unused-by-me) formula.

1.  People do judge formula feeding moms.

From the looks at the store to health care providers to other moms and even grandmas, people really do look down (literally) at formula feeding.  Straight down into the cart with narrowed eyes and mmm..hmmm glances.  I thought (wished?  hoped?) that all of the things I've always heard about the judgmental attitude about formula was wrong, but well...it's not.  Based on my own reactions, I'm seriously worried that I have been the one casting those nasty looks and making assumptions in the past.  It was hard for me to overcome my own formula-predjudice.  I really believed that I was a failure for not being able to do this.  I still cringe every time Tomas needs a bottle when we are out and about because I know that the looks are coming.



2.  Everyone has an idea that would fix your breastfeeding problem.

Some people constrain their formula feelings to "the look".  Others, however, are sure they know your baby and your body better than you and want to take it a step further and fix it for you.  Since most all breastfeeding advocates think that all feeding problems can be solved with just a little more work or a different health care provider (even if that person is half way around the country), everyone has an idea that will surly *fix* the problem.  Sending the loud and clear message that mom is simply lazy or not doing enough.  Of course if *they* were in the situation they would have no problem sacrificing themselves, their family, and maybe even their baby on the alter of breastfeeding.  Breastfeeding is hard and there are a lot of problems that can be overcome.  I applaud those moms that have been able to do that, but I resent the implication that the fact that I didn't means I failed.

Honestly, the best fix to our breastfeeding problems was when I returned the rental breast pump to the hospital in order to have even five minutes/day for my other children and to actually enjoy my baby rather than handing him off again and again to someone else so that I could sit in a room alone with a couple of plastic cylinders.  I'm glad I pumped as long as I did, but honestly it was time to let it go.  (In case you don't believe me regarding points #1 & #2, someone just read this last paragraph and was tempted to tell me that if only I had a different bra or a different pump or a certain baby carrier *then* I wouldn't have had to choose, but I digress.... Oh, and if that was you shame on you!)

3.  Formula and bottles are not for the faint of heart.

For almost five months I was basically unable to leave the house because there were a limited number of places that I could feed Tomas.  I never knew if he would eat, so I never knew if we would be able to finish shopping or whatever else.  Maybe he would nurse, maybe he wouldn't.  Maybe he would throw up once, or maybe he would throw up for the next two hours.   Even when I was pumping I had no idea if he would take a bottle or how much.  I was really excited to finally leave the house for a bonfire with friends!  I packed up a bottle of water and a little pouch of formula measured out to his special 24 kcal blend.  I loaded it all up in the diaper bag....and left the bottle nipple sitting on the counter!  I was so grateful to be nursing part time so we could go find a quiet spot and I could coax him into a few minutes of nursing to tide him over, but if that hadn't been the case we would have had to drive home a half hour with a starving overtired baby.  None of my friends formula feed their babies and all bottles are not created equally so if not for my lactating self my child would have gone hungry.    In all my years of quickly shushing a fussy baby and messing with layers of clothes and bra snaps, nothing holds a candle to trying to measure and fill a bottle one handed with a grabby, hungry six month old "helping".

4.  Formula is marketing gig.

"For Supplementation"  "For Sensitivity" "For Fussiness"  "Advance"  They all look the same and obviously they all sell, so what to buy?  The first time we had to buy formula on our own I was so overwhelmed that I let Kylee (age 7) pick the brand.  Seriously, I had no idea what I was looking for. Once we finally had a (very expensive, pre broken down, hypoallergenic) formula chosen there was still a marketing hurdle to overcome.



These two cans of formula are the exact same physical size.  One, however, holds 13.25 oz of powdered formula and one holds 16 oz.  Not only do the two containers of the exact same size containing the exact same brand of formula contain different amounts, they use different size scoops. This means the formula inside the can is NOT the same concentration.  In fact the smaller can uses the larger scoop, which holds 9 grams of powder as compared to 6 grams.  This is a huge problem when you are concentrating formula like we are because adding and additional 1 tsp of powder for each 80 mls of formula adds a different amount of calories depending on which can you are using.  Following?  Me either most days.  Tim is better than me at math and he tells me that this means a 20% increase in calories or 40% of a 2 ounce scoop goes into 4 ounces.  Enter in the postal scale and measuring and now I need a PhD just to feed my kid.  See point #3.

5.  Formula is expensive.

Continuing on with the marketing gig presented in point #4, both of these sized cans of formula range between $25-$35 depending on where I shop.  For ten cans/month to account for concentrating, this amounts to roughly $250-$350, or more than 25% of what we spend on all of the food for the entire rest of our family of 8.   If the formula cost isn't enough, there are bottles and nipples.  All bottles are not created equal and most nipples are not compatible across brands so figure $10-$20 every time you run into a problem with a bottle or need to stock up on more.  An interesting point beyond this is that we live in a small town and we have to drive a half hour to the closest grocery store that carries our formula, which of course adds a cost.  Yes Amazon carries it but not subscribe and save and not any cheaper than anywhere else.  Enough said about that.

6.  WIC is a lifesaver.

For part time bottle feeding, and because of medical necessity, WIC covers all of our formula for the course of a month which for us basically eliminates point #5 now that we have a system that works (although due to the process of finding that, we shelled out a fair amount in the meantime).  I hear it's not that easy for all moms, however, because WIC is brand specific.  Formula companies negotiate with WIC for the right to all of the WIC purchasing in a particular state.  See point #4 about marketing and enter the rant I will resist giving you about the government controlling what kids eat!   If breastfeeding isn't your plan, for whatever reason, you are basically limited to the formula they sell (if you want to use WIC... and you do) unless you have a medically qualified exemption.  And just in case you were wondering, there is a long list of reasons that WIC won't cover a different brand including things like diarrhea, constipation, food sensitivities, etc.  Only medically "necessary" and even with that, we had a fair amount of back and forth faxes between our GI, dietician, and the WIC office.  That being said, I have no idea how we would afford this without WIC.

7.  This can be beautiful and celebrated too.

Of all the things I've learned, this one is the most important.  Tomas had a rough start in life.  Not a lot happened in ways that I would choose to do again.  I have seen him in pain, struggling to breath, and hungry but unable to eat.  Yet, when I see him excited to see his bottle being made I am excited for him.  When he reaches to help hold the bottle when it starts to be lighter at the end of a meal I let go for a few second to let him try.



And when he doesn't throw it back up on me?  Even all the more reason to celebrate.

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