Tim visited today by himself for most of the day, he even took me out for ice cream. Then he went home and we had a very enlightened text conversation as you can see....
I've been thinking more and more about the results of our testing that is only a few days away at this point. It's not that I'm anxious about the results, the truth is I feel strangely peaceful about it. Due to a variety of reasons, I feel fairly confident I will ultimately be diagnosed with PPROM. The thing that I struggle with is back to more unknown. While I knew it was one of the options, I have avoided investing too much research into one option or another. I'm starting to learn more about what PPROM means and THAT makes me a little anxious. I realized we have never discussed a notification-of-Tim-in-case-of-emergency/kid plan. The more stories I read about PPROM is that most of the babies are ok long term, but many, many of them end up delivering very suddenly after feeling just like I do now...which is that everything is fine. On one hand I know that's why I'm here but on the other hand reading actual birth stories made it a little more real that delivery is not something I've really put a lot of preparation in for but it really could literally be imminent.
I should probably stop reading stories now....at least until after the testing is finished :)
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